I wonder if we knew the journey… would we still take the same path?
What started out as a longtime dream turned into a love affair. I have loved, lost and lived thus far a life full of twists and turns, some much darker than others. But through this – all of it, the good, the bad, the flat, the happy, the pain – I would take the same path!
There are times in one’s life when the proverbial fork in the road can change the direction one takes, maybe temporarily or lifelong. When I was 20, I took a path that I innately knew would forever change me. My conviction in this path never wavered for a second … perhaps it saved me from being afloat.
I speak of having my first child and all the trials and enormous joy that experience brought to me. I always adored my children; they felt like a natural fit, though I didn’t know the gravity of raising humans, it never occurred to me.
I want my children to know that through all of the muck and the light, I can truly say these are the most amazing humans I know! My mother told me to raise my children so I would want to be with them, and I inadvertently did just that! (This history is going somewhere, I promise!)
I put my aspirations aside at a young age. The life I had was not my plan, but in the end, it was the best plan for me. I now see myself again at said fork in the road, and again the path seems clear. You see, I choose me, my family, my beloved dogs, my home … to enjoy and savor the sweet snippets in life I want to freeze-frame.
I have lived long enough to figure some things out (too bad this knowledge is bestowed so late in life).
So many of you have reached out, wishing me well and wondering why I would let go of something so wonderful. The simple answer is I want to savor my life, take a deep breath and slow down.
Oh, the joy I have found in creating this little nest! Whatever I could conjure, l could create (with hours and hours, and many people helping – Blanca and Norma, I could never have done it without you).
I am so very grateful for all of you who came, believed and supported this dream. I still can’t truly believe the outpouring of love and support you have shown me. Humbled I am to have had the honor of meeting and knowing so many of you.
This little lady who has stood tall and proud for more than 100 years has seen her trials, through fire, changing times, darkness and light. She is a testament to the perseverance of soul. I feel those who have walked these floors, and I sense the hard work and sacrifices made to survive life.
You have all now become part of her history.
She holds many secrets, has seen me through many different things in a very short time.
I will never forget my time as guardian, nor will I ever forget all of you.
Thank you for being a part of my story, for showing up to help me understand that although we may not know our own strength or what we are capable of, life puts us in the path to find ourselves.
Thank you for being a part of this journey with me.
I cannot leave these words behind without expressing to my daughters what smart, capable women you have become. The Winsome Nest would have never been without your help.
To my husband…. You always have believed I’m able to move mountains and hearts with my actions and words. You are and have always been my hero. I thank you for tirelessly supporting me, cheering me on and thinking I am extraordinary. I love you.